Well - it is Post it Note Tuesday, but I don't have any witty Post-Its today... This post is going to be a difficult one for me... I started this blog months ago to have a place to rant. None of my "real" friends or family knew about it. Then gradually, I told a few people. The result of that has been that I have censored this blog. Today will be a very uncensored post...
The Enginerd and I have decided to end our marriage. It is difficult to even type those words - I still cannot bring myself to say to D-word. We have been married for 17 years; I have been with him since I was 16 years old; this is something I NEVER thought I would I go through; it is a sad sad time.
We are trying to work together to make this separation as amicable as possible. Obviously we will always be in each others lives, and we are hoping to remain friends. He has been in my life for 25 years... He has given me 2 beautiful children... There was a time when we were happy and in love... I am holding onto all of that - he will always hold a special place in my heart, and a piece of me will always love him. But the sadness in our marriage is pervasive, and we both deserve to be happy. We also owe it to our children to create positive, happy environments for them, and we have failed at that for some time.
For all of my "real life" friends out there - please do not email, text, phone, or IM me with tons of questions. I do not want to talk! I have chosen a few select, very old, dear friends and family members to confide in about this. I am also continuing to see a therapist to work through the grief and all of the other emotions that I am experiencing right now.
Thank you friends - for listening to me ramble on about this difficult time.
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